(thoughts on) Life

My life is good, I have cake and coffee, a lovely home, great friends, wonderful family.However, recently I’ve been feeling the anxiety and depression rise to the surface again

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release the weight

In July 2018 I had lost some weight but that had stalled so I took the opportunity to rejoin the gym. Which is going well, I’m loving regaining the strength I once had and am already seeing the difference. I’ve also been experimenting with my nutrition and thought I’d share my experience.

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It’s the little luxuries (mostly)

For the last few years I’ve been poor, not quite abject poverty but almost. Living existing with depression took away my reasoning, it totally tanked my decision making skills – and my life and business suffered for it.

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Emergence

There have been so many changes in myself and my life over the last few years which have brought me to this place of emergence into a new life

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A Bunch of Geeks – the idea

We mill around the lobby of a four star hotel, cosplayers looking awesome, geeky tees worn proudly, all our quirks on display ... and we know that there are 'normal' people looking at us and thinking "what a bunch of geeks". Some, not all, will be...

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ESTA Success : Jack Knight

Jack Knight is a graphic artist and owner of Knighttime Creations. Here is his story.  What successes have you had from being part of the ESTA community? I've made some great connections with other local business owners which has led to a variety of...

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A Little More Conversation

It’s been there, niggling at the recesses of my mind, there’s been something missing – and it’s been missing for a long time. Conversation. And I’m not talking small talk, and I’m not meaning discussions of various (and awesome) geeky movies/tv shows. Although the...

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Not Wanting To Be Here

I am here, I will always be here ... and yet I'm tired, and I do not want to be here. I do not want to be in this place of sadness and failure. I no longer wish to reside in the land of lack and loss. I want to be ... elsewhere, anywhere but here. In the void, in...

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Who Am I? Who Will I Become?

Set up by Sophie over at One Unique, Huddle and Cuddle is a campaign to help raise awareness of mental health issues buy using the means of social media. Influencers have teamed up to help this campaign and to spread the word, allowing people to never feel alone by...

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Goodbye Darkness, My Old Friend

A small corner of her brain mourned. Recalled the comfort of her lost friend's arms around her, the safe feeling of knowing they were there and there for her alone. Except they weren't. They were there for themselves, insinuating bonds of fear and doubt, invisible yet...

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do you see me?

What do you see when you look at me? Do you see the smile or the sorrow? The light of the eyes, the joy I bring to people’s lives, the always ready to help personality, the kindness, the empathy, the trust, love? Do you see the sadness, the pain of feeling unworthy,...

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