do you see me?

What do you see when you look at me? Do you see the smile or the sorrow?

The light of the eyes, the joy I bring to people’s lives, the always ready to help personality, the kindness, the empathy, the trust, love?

Do you see the sadness, the pain of feeling unworthy, the feelings of despair and loneliness. The thoughts of wanting to be out of the way, to not be a burden, to sleep and not wake.

Do you see the way my eyes turn sad when I think no-one is looking? Do you see the droop of my shoulders, the dejected air, the hopelessness. Do you see the tiredness in every step, the effort it takes to just be.

Despair, sadness, loneliness, unnoticed, unremarkable, tired, black, grey, dark, shadow, mire, exhausted, unworthy, unwanted, discarded, derided, down, pressure, pain, dislike, cry, scream, sob, yell, grief, bereft, alone, dead.

What do you see when you look at me? You see the smile.

Mischievous Hayley

Hayley’s a pretty but mischievous girl With a cheeky wee smile And a saucy wee curl. But she’d crayon her name On the living room wall. Or leave muddy footprints all over the hall. Her mother would shout In a voice of despair. Then Hayley would sulk And pretend not to hear. One day in […]

Past Hopes, Plans and Dreams

Second Lt Smith, 24, of 1/5th (TF) battalion, East Lancashire Regiment, 42nd Division, he  won the VC for conspicuous bravery. Dec 23rd 1915 he led a bombing party to make life difficult for the Turks as the Allies withdrew. After hours exchanging grenades and bombs. with it raining heavily making the ground muddy and treacherous, […]

Ward of the Bone House 1

First draft & ideas to follow up on from day one of NaNoWriMo (edit : I decided against this for NaNo this year as it involved too much research which I couldn’t fir in as well as the writing. Carrying on with another story I started instead)   A bitter taste, citrus with an underlying […]

Unnamed Fantasy -1

I sat up suddenly, sleep fleeing and heart pounding. A glance at my phone told me it was far too early. 3.33am was not a time I liked to see. But what had woken me? Thud, thud, thud. Something was attempting to make dents in my hardwood front door. Whatever it was had better have […]

Protected: Life Sucks

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Callum’s Pet

Callum was crazy, everyone said, To keep a young dinosaur Under his bed. Callum would say “It’s no trouble at all. It eats quite a lot Yet stays very small.” But everyone knew One day he’d regret Keeping a dinosaur Just like a pet. Callum awoke with a bump one dark night He looked out […]


Long, mousy brown hair, shiny and well-conditioned falling forward over her face as if to hide it from prying eyes. Or to hide her intrusive eyes from others. A mature but well kept face with plain, almost masculine, features. Pale blue eyes seemingly looking downwards and reading her book. On closer examination though, you see them nervously flicking […]


*from a prompt I was given via Twitter (I think) It was a dark and stormy night, except that it was daytime and sunny. Rolfe ran from brightside to nightside and wondered at the strangeness of living on this new world where half the planet always faced the sun while the other half was in […]


Opening the door was a pretty normal occurrence, life on the other side wasn’t. I wanted to go to the store, after all a girl gotta have cake don’t she? One step, one blink and I realised cake was not a priority anymore. Yes the sky was still blue, the trees were still green, the smell of […]